It's only been the last couple of years that I've been a real go getter. I think a little part of me has always been a list making, NEED to get certain things done and I'll stay up til 2AM if I need to kind of person. But before these past couple of years I didn't really take on more than i could handle. And I didnt really overstress when I couldnt be wonder woman. Maybe its just because of the added responsibilities that come with getting older, being in college and having a husband; which, dont get me wrong, all have their perks. But the past little while I've been in this mood where I get super stressed if I don't get every little thing done and am constantly feeling like there's more to do. School could always use a little extra attention, my laundry room has been totally clean MAYBE three times since we've been married, I'm lucky if I cook dinner three times in one week, I wish my car got washed way more often, can I ever make it to Costco before it closes?, my lessons could use some work and don't even get me started about where I need to be spending more time on the spiritual side of things. And that's a short list!
But a few months ago, I had such a great RS lesson. She talked about the seasons of life and being aware of which one you're in, learning what you need to while you're in it and being ready for the next one in whatever ways you can. Just mastering the moment youre in. If youre in the season of being a student: study hard, stay up late cramming for finals, be in the library til all hours of the night. If youre in a mom season: be the best, love your kids, freak out once in a while, have a messy kitchen. I remembered this lesson last week when someone reminded me that I just needed to trust that I'm exactly where i need to be, learning the things I need to know for the next step in my life (WHATEVER that may be). It was a little more poetic than that but you get the idea. I also saw this cute little sign the other day that I should seriously consider buying to hang up in my house. It said "you can do anything, but not everything."
My point is, I'm really good at getting stressed out about all the things I'm not getting done, but in the long run...thats just making me sell myself short on the things I am getting done. I forget too quickly that I'm in the season of finishing school and learning how to be a wife. My sweet husband doesn't expect to come home to a squeaky clean house with a well balanced meal on the table and me in a ravishing outfit and my hair done...especially when Ive been in class all day and hopefully at the gym for an hour. But I still have trouble feeling OK about this myself.
So my new goal: Im finishing school and trying to take advantage of the moment: being 24, married to the most amazing guy ever, living in still-cold-in-may Sandy, Utah and wearing sweats a little more often than my husband would probably like. ;) Maybe my next season will be the one where Im really good at juggling my household duties, cooking dinner 4 nights a week instead of 3 and preparing my lessons a week in advance instead of 3 days, and ironing all of Taylor's shirts the same month they got washed.
Moral of the story: be aware of your season. Live it well and learn from it! It's going to be over sooner than you think and youll be on to the next, wishing you got the most out of what was right in front of you.
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